Its official. i'n NOT in. well, maybe not really official cos i dint hear it from the right person. but i am most likely not in unless unless somebody is out(which most likely wont)

so THANK YOU for making me feeling L-O-U-S-Y and sucha L-O-S-E-R thankyouFULLSTOP!

i feel wretchedly bad and miserable abt myself. damn me!

(11:12 AM)

I’m gonna rebel and the rebellious devil in me is coming out all at once. Hahaha. I am thinking of getting a tattoo. On my right shoulder blade. I wanna get the tattoo artist to design one that combines both a butterfly and flowers tgt. (it will have to be coloured – most likely red) but getting a tattoo will means no SQ. hahaha. So gotta think hard abt it.

Check out the designs out! I am so obsessed with all of them. From the colours to the designs and all.








Tmr I will be going to haji land with twinny cheo and jojo then to bugis to get my ear pierced. I will be super nervous getting it pierce thou I knw that its not painful at all. Hahaha. Getting it pierced again on my right side. Ask me why I am doing it? Just feel like rebelling I guess. Hahaha.

I guess today staying at home have made me wanna rebel. Hahaha. Weird, I know. Plus I am not the rebellious kind, I will only say I am towards the wild side but still not too over the top. Hahaha.

I was reading some friends blog and a number of them have been going to BKK. Hahaha. I wanna go back there to SHOP! SHOP! SHOP! I just wanna go back there! Maybe next year cos this year is out. Hahaha.

But I am going to BINTAN! With biebielove, choypuisi, gengoh and lovelywan! Hahaha. Cool shit! The trip is going to be love! Will be meeting new friends and doing all the bimbo stuffs with biebielove and playing coolshit stuffs with lovelywan then will jus gossip non-stop with gengoh (choypuisi will jus listen) hahaha. I love all walks of friends going to bintan with me! And I am so super bintan is going to be LOVELOVELOVE! Hahahaha.

(9:31 AM)

this is my dear friend benedict! he just made me laugh!

Lenin and McCartney says:
tell me if you think xxx is actually wearing something in this pic

jessie. says:
u are an idiot

Lenin and McCartney says:
WHAT YOU THINK?! HAHAHA

jessie. says:
if she's not that its sick cos its ugly

Lenin and McCartney says:
haha but so low still can't see anything

Lenin and McCartney says:
but why would she take a nude picture of herself

jessie. says:sick

Lenin and McCartney says:
oh but she is quite ugly without her powders. and her figure is disgustingly thin........

Lenin and McCartney says:
can see her collar bone like there's no meat covering

Lenin and McCartney says:
AND SHE GOT NO BREAST! hahaha *flashes loser sign*

Lenin and McCartney says:
" Airbus A380, you are clear to land on XXX chests..... I assure you smooth landing.... over...."

jessie. says:u are insane

Lenin and McCartney says:
"Airbus A380 to control tower, we've got debris on the runway" SHE DIDN'T SHAVE! haha

Lenin and McCartney says:
okay you know i'm quite convinced she's wearing nothing

XXX is a super skinny girl. hahaha.

(11:00 AM)

Finally i can stop craving to eat BBQ food cos there's going to be a BBQ session at nic's place tmr night! yeah! hahaha.

last night i went out with the girls. hahaha. we went to town to eat thai express then down to zouk to get stamped(we were super early, walked ard great world city) then off to the arena to get free flows of drinks.the visit there was eventful! hahaha. i cant drink when i am feeling emo. hahaha. goodness me! i took 2 vodka lime and 1 vodka shot i am weak and i knw that! hahaha. but i was all alright until i went back to zouk. and after seeing cheryl vomitting i also wanted to vomit. so when i was at the dance floor i jus puke into the empty jars (or rather i tot it was empty) and then i just left the club to go home to sleep.

then i heard from my friend that a guy drank my puke!

oh my god! how gross can that be! hahaha. i'm sorry! hahaha.


PHOTO TIME!

the girls!


choy pui si and ME!


all the girls that were in town!

will post the pre club photos later on when i get my hands on them! hahaha

(6:29 AM)

Just got back from M'sia and i miss the rest and 1st year alot. i hope biebielove is coping well. thank god oilylove and jojolove have been helping her out!

THE REST! OH MY! u all are all badly missed by me! our chilled out sessions! i wan to have that soon! hahaha.

there's another grp! MISS GEN GOH! AND CHOY PUI SI! hahaha. gen are u ready for another jay chou concert? hahaha.

i just came across leona lewis "better in time" totally spelled out how i have been feeling these few days. hahaha. and i realised that i when i move forward ten steps i will always fall back to step no. 2. time will just make things fall into place and that things will be better in time!

:thought i couldnt live without you
its gonna hurt when it heals to
it'll all get better in time
eventhough i really love you
im gonna smile cause i deserve to
it'll all get better in time:

:go in, come in
thought i heard a knock
who's there? no one
thinking that i deserved it
now i realize that i really didnt know
you didnt notice, you mean everything
quickly im learning, to love again
all i know is, imma be ok:



you knw that i've promised you i will always be there when your heart is feel with sorrows or when u just need a friend, i am just ard the corner.

goodbye melody rose.

(7:41 PM)

Today have been a great day! hahaha. it cant be better! hahaha. finally passed it! woohoo... hahahaha. i've got my driving 3C license already! yeah baby! hahaha.

exams are coming, and i have got back some of my coursework grade. well, let's just say its average. hahaha. like everybody i want to work hard for my papers. oh yeah!

i am so tired on putting up a brave front. so just stop being like this. it will just make me pissed off with u!

(4:13 AM)

on a very random note.
i need a new direction in life.
hahahaha
well, at least a new goal to work towards to. be it a short or long term ones. hahaha
afterall, i will be growing old soon thus need to set things right. hahaha. or rather set my life going on the right track, right foot.hahaha.
turning into the big 2 is SCARRRRRIIIEEE! I REALLY MEAN IT!
goodness me!
hahaha.

anw, i am in no mood to finish up my last report of this sem. i shld be happy and excited but then i am not even half done la. oh please! jessie get motivated please!

hahaha.

met up, hang out and chilled out with first year loves! hahaha. i love them a lot! this session was better than expected! and i really really wan to have somemore of such sessions! hahaha. love u girls!

hahaha. this entry is filled with randomness. hahaha.

hey A darling. i love you a lot! i just wan to let u know i will do my best to help u pull thru this time k. just rmb that u always have me here k. i will help u thru all the bad times and celebrate the best time of your life too! lovelovelove.

alright, i guess i will try to get back to my work. and wake that lazy bum up to continue on her work too! hahaha.

in abt 12hrs later i will be off to ma lai si ya already. dont miss me too much love.

ps to the rest and first year love, please be online on 8 feb! i need u all badly. cos i think i will just be the winner of golden horse actress again. hahaha

(10:21 AM)

i have almost stop shopping online! hahahaha
i have stop going to those spree sites!!! and just now i tried to go but i was just to lazy to see what spree is on. hahahaha. i am rather proud of myself!!!
cos i used to go there like every other hr. hahaha. those were the insane shopping day. hahaha.

17 days to the big 2!!! hahahah. i dont really like this idea. oh my!

(8:25 AM)