jessie loves you

2008-03-31T11:12:00.000-07:00

Its official. i'n NOT in. well, maybe not really official cos i dint hear it from the right person. but i am most likely not in unless unless somebody is out(which most likely wont)

so THANK YOU for making me feeling L-O-U-S-Y and sucha L-O-S-E-R thankyouFULLSTOP!

i feel wretchedly bad and miserable abt myself. damn me!

2008-03-28T09:31:00.000-07:00

I’m gonna rebel and the rebellious devil in me is coming out all at once. Hahaha. I am thinking of getting a tattoo. On my right shoulder blade. I wanna get the tattoo artist to design one that combines both a butterfly and flowers tgt. (it will have to be coloured – most likely red) but getting a tattoo will means no SQ. hahaha. So gotta think hard abt it.

Check out the designs out! I am so obsessed with all of them. From the colours to the designs and all.

Tmr I will be going to haji land with twinny cheo and jojo then to bugis to get my ear pierced. I will be super nervous getting it pierce thou I knw that its not painful at all. Hahaha. Getting it pierced again on my right side. Ask me why I am doing it? Just feel like rebelling I guess. Hahaha.

I guess today staying at home have made me wanna rebel. Hahaha. Weird, I know. Plus I am not the rebellious kind, I will only say I am towards the wild side but still not too over the top. Hahaha.

I was reading some friends blog and a number of them have been going to BKK. Hahaha. I wanna go back there to SHOP! SHOP! SHOP! I just wanna go back there! Maybe next year cos this year is out. Hahaha.

But I am going to BINTAN! With biebielove, choypuisi, gengoh and lovelywan! Hahaha. Cool shit! The trip is going to be love! Will be meeting new friends and doing all the bimbo stuffs with biebielove and playing coolshit stuffs with lovelywan then will jus gossip non-stop with gengoh (choypuisi will jus listen) hahaha. I love all walks of friends going to bintan with me! And I am so super bintan is going to be LOVELOVELOVE! Hahahaha.

2008-03-27T11:00:00.000-07:00

this is my dear friend benedict! he just made me laugh!

Lenin and McCartney says:
tell me if you think xxx is actually wearing something in this pic

jessie. says:
u are an idiot

Lenin and McCartney says:
WHAT YOU THINK?! HAHAHA

jessie. says:
if she's not that its sick cos its ugly

Lenin and McCartney says:
haha but so low still can't see anything

Lenin and McCartney says:
but why would she take a nude picture of herself

jessie. says:sick

Lenin and McCartney says:
oh but she is quite ugly without her powders. and her figure is disgustingly thin........

Lenin and McCartney says:
can see her collar bone like there's no meat covering

Lenin and McCartney says:
AND SHE GOT NO BREAST! hahaha *flashes loser sign*

Lenin and McCartney says:
" Airbus A380, you are clear to land on XXX chests..... I assure you smooth landing.... over...."

jessie. says:u are insane

Lenin and McCartney says:
"Airbus A380 to control tower, we've got debris on the runway" SHE DIDN'T SHAVE! haha

Lenin and McCartney says:
okay you know i'm quite convinced she's wearing nothing

XXX is a super skinny girl. hahaha.

2008-03-27T06:29:00.000-07:00

Finally i can stop craving to eat BBQ food cos there's going to be a BBQ session at nic's place tmr night! yeah! hahaha.

last night i went out with the girls. hahaha. we went to town to eat thai express then down to zouk to get stamped(we were super early, walked ard great world city) then off to the arena to get free flows of drinks.the visit there was eventful! hahaha. i cant drink when i am feeling emo. hahaha. goodness me! i took 2 vodka lime and 1 vodka shot i am weak and i knw that! hahaha. but i was all alright until i went back to zouk. and after seeing cheryl vomitting i also wanted to vomit. so when i was at the dance floor i jus puke into the empty jars (or rather i tot it was empty) and then i just left the club to go home to sleep.

then i heard from my friend that a guy drank my puke!

oh my god! how gross can that be! hahaha. i'm sorry! hahaha.

PHOTO TIME!

the girls!

choy pui si and ME!

all the girls that were in town!

will post the pre club photos later on when i get my hands on them! hahaha

better in time

2008-03-24T19:41:00.000-07:00

Just got back from M'sia and i miss the rest and 1st year alot. i hope biebielove is coping well. thank god oilylove and jojolove have been helping her out!

THE REST! OH MY! u all are all badly missed by me! our chilled out sessions! i wan to have that soon! hahaha.

there's another grp! MISS GEN GOH! AND CHOY PUI SI! hahaha. gen are u ready for another jay chou concert? hahaha.

i just came across leona lewis "better in time" totally spelled out how i have been feeling these few days. hahaha. and i realised that i when i move forward ten steps i will always fall back to step no. 2. time will just make things fall into place and that things will be better in time!

:thought i couldnt live without you
its gonna hurt when it heals to
it'll all get better in time
eventhough i really love you
im gonna smile cause i deserve to
it'll all get better in time:

:go in, come in
thought i heard a knock
who's there? no one
thinking that i deserved it
now i realize that i really didnt know
you didnt notice, you mean everything
quickly im learning, to love again
all i know is, imma be ok:

you knw that i've promised you i will always be there when your heart is feel with sorrows or when u just need a friend, i am just ard the corner.

goodbye melody rose.

2008-02-19T04:13:00.000-08:00

Today have been a great day! hahaha. it cant be better! hahaha. finally passed it! woohoo... hahahaha. i've got my driving 3C license already! yeah baby! hahaha.

exams are coming, and i have got back some of my coursework grade. well, let's just say its average. hahaha. like everybody i want to work hard for my papers. oh yeah!

i am so tired on putting up a brave front. so just stop being like this. it will just make me pissed off with u!

2008-02-04T10:21:00.000-08:00

on a very random note.
i need a new direction in life.
hahahaha
well, at least a new goal to work towards to. be it a short or long term ones. hahaha
afterall, i will be growing old soon thus need to set things right. hahaha. or rather set my life going on the right track, right foot.hahaha.
turning into the big 2 is SCARRRRRIIIEEE! I REALLY MEAN IT!
goodness me!
hahaha.

anw, i am in no mood to finish up my last report of this sem. i shld be happy and excited but then i am not even half done la. oh please! jessie get motivated please!

hahaha.

met up, hang out and chilled out with first year loves! hahaha. i love them a lot! this session was better than expected! and i really really wan to have somemore of such sessions! hahaha. love u girls!

hahaha. this entry is filled with randomness. hahaha.

hey A darling. i love you a lot! i just wan to let u know i will do my best to help u pull thru this time k. just rmb that u always have me here k. i will help u thru all the bad times and celebrate the best time of your life too! lovelovelove.

alright, i guess i will try to get back to my work. and wake that lazy bum up to continue on her work too! hahaha.

in abt 12hrs later i will be off to ma lai si ya already. dont miss me too much love.

ps to the rest and first year love, please be online on 8 feb! i need u all badly. cos i think i will just be the winner of golden horse actress again. hahaha

2008-01-22T08:25:00.000-08:00

i have almost stop shopping online! hahahaha
i have stop going to those spree sites!!! and just now i tried to go but i was just to lazy to see what spree is on. hahahaha. i am rather proud of myself!!!
cos i used to go there like every other hr. hahaha. those were the insane shopping day. hahaha.

17 days to the big 2!!! hahahah. i dont really like this idea. oh my!

2008-01-21T17:58:00.000-08:00

finally i have time to talk! hahaha

the last two weeks or so, tgt with my groupmates, we have been busy beating all the project monster away. those mean creatures were killing me. hahaha. we have been all awake for days! its like catching half to one hr of sleep every night cos we need to finish up the projects. then when we are awake we get high on sugar.hahaha. the nearly breaking down moments or rather some of us just breakdown. hahaha. but overall i still love my group a lot!!! hahahaha. cos this is the only grp that i have been will get high on sugar easily!

and soon we will be finishing 2 more grp project and 2 more indiv. ones! hahaha

the last 2 weeks was not only projects. hahaha. there were drama mama moments in my life too. hahaha. some idiot will just talk to me at the wrong time when i am so stress over projects and then end up on bad terms. sigh.

on a lighter note! my FAVOURITE MOVIE , PS; i love you ,is out already! not in Singapore yet! hahaha. i was watching it online. and the movie was only starting and i have already started crying. hahahaha. and i still cried all the way. i have read the book already and till today its still my favourite book. hahahaha. its the sweetest thing any guy can do for his girl. hahaha. but like all other books to movies, they dint really follow the book's story closely. but still its good(: hahahaha.

i also want to watch 27dresses. hahahaha.

a shoutout to THE REST! especially wan ru and twinny! i miss miss miss you all alot! i haven seen u all for ages! GERRI TOO! hahaha

audrey darling! i miss you too! ice-cream will be on me k! so lets set a date for that! one day after your work or smth! LOVE!

2008-01-06T10:53:00.000-08:00

Goodbye my almost lover
Goodbye my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should have known you'd bring me heartache,
almost lovers always do

So you're gone and i'm haunted
and i'll bet you are just fine,
Did i make it that easy
to walk right in and out
of my life?

i cant wait for the one to come.

2007-12-28T08:40:00.000-08:00

This is my 50th post.

i am having a very emo-mo-mo feeling. please just kill me la. hahahaha. quietly please.

argh...

i've stop crying already love. hahaha.

i wan my knight/hero/soulmate love.

2007-12-24T18:10:00.000-08:00

Happy Christmas Loves.
hahaha.

2007-12-17T04:05:00.000-08:00

and now i am back home abt in malaysia. hahaha. i will only be abt to see the place abt 2-3 more trips and then i will be moving to a new place. the new place is abt the same as this one but but but i love this place a lot!!! its like i will never tot of moving out of here. this house is my childhood!!! my first times and all. hahahaa. and and and this is the first house i live in the day i came out of the hospital!!!

i love coming back here. the time here just naturally slows down and i have more time with my parents!!! its like i see them in the morning and at night when we go out for dinner. i love it when they open our room doors calling us to wake up and see where we want to go today. haahhaa. my brother and sister went out today but i decided to stay at home and sleep plus watch my dramas. hahaha. and now i am just waiting for time to pass so that i can have my dinner!!! hahahaa. i am so hungry. hahaahaa.

and this morning i got a unexpected email. i love love love her to bits!!! hahaha. the email made my day!!! hahaha. i love you girl!!! muack and kisses.

Last night i attended a distant cousin's wedding. or rather someone i never knew until yesterday. hahaha. his sister is pretty from far but its just alright looking face to face. hahaha. oh wella. i am loving life here. hahaha. and and and i am so looking forward for christmas cos we will be dining at somewhere nice just my family and i. hahahaa. this year i hope that it will just be my family alone. hahahaa.

i love love love my daddy!!! cos he managed to put up the wireless at home when my brother and i couldnt do it. hahaha

2007-12-07T20:49:00.000-08:00

who will love me like you did?

i cant wait for that person to appear.

if its something i love, i will let it go, if it comes back, i am sure its mine.
and if it dint, then i guess it wasnt even mine in the first place.

2007-12-02T22:30:00.000-08:00

jessie loves you!

hahaha.

Last night was a happy night, after one weekend of sleepless nights and emo-mo-mo-ing. i am now finally another happy girl who was just given sweets. hahahaa. after a couple of weeks of waiting i finally got what i wanted. and i am really happy!!! hahahaa. i just love this feeling of being flew back to the past. Even if its only awhile but that's enough.

2007-11-29T08:03:00.000-08:00

i cannot emphasize more on how much i am loving my life.

there's this very familar feeling that i felt a few years ago - the jittering, nervousness and the rush of adrenaline. hahahaa.

and even this doesnt go as i wanted it to be, i will be fine. hahahaha. cos i am not the jessie i use to be a year ago.

i am loving my life so much. cos i have the HOTTEST friends ever! and i am sure they will make the next headlines. hahahaa. thou at times there are unhappiness but at the end of the day we know we still love each other a lot! hahahaa. you all made me see the good side of life. things that are worth being happy about and not being so depress on other things. i love you all!

i cant be happier love-

2007-11-24T02:42:00.000-08:00

It funnie how we were best friends but yet we have moved so far apart and that our friendship will never be like before and slowly i am sure we won't even be talking anymore. the air around you is so fucking fake. and as time passes, i dont know how to talk to u anymore.

Last time, if one were to just the of us tgt, we will have endless topic and activities to do but now? i just i will just stone there alone and ignore you for as long as i can. i hate what you are doing now. just disappear please cos u are the needle in my life now!

FUCK OFF YOU BITCH! I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU BITCH!

i love the way my life is now but recently u are spoiling everything! you made me so disappointed!

2007-11-23T05:43:00.000-08:00

have i mentioned before that i am really happy with the way i am living my life.

I LOVE MY LIFE!
(thou the flu is killing me)

i am really happy that things turn out so well. i mentioned before that time will make things fall into place and that everything will go well.hahahaha. and it did!

i just cant wait for something else to happen. the one and only thing i have been waiting for quite some time and i really hope this time is real. hahahaha

Its really amazing how things fell ito place all by itself and how i grew so much stronger and also i'm able to get over things. Thou it took really long but hey! i am glad things turn out like that and today i am able to talk abt the past without feeling depressed or anything. i just get by almost everyday happily especially now!

JESSIE IS A HAPPY GIRL

2007-11-22T05:58:00.000-08:00

sometimes i dont know what's really going on but i just hope things wont be awkward. i will just stand there and stone and keeping really quiet cos i just dont know what to say love.

2007-11-21T06:54:00.000-08:00

i will smile again love.

happy endings

2007-11-20T08:32:00.000-08:00

This is the way you left me
I'm not pretending
No hope, no love, no glory
No happy ending

This is the way that we love
Like its forever
Then live the rest of our life
But not together

Wake up in the morning
Stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen
I guess I wish you well
Mmm a little bit of heaven
But a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told. (ooooo)
No hope OR love OR glory
Happy ending's gone forever more

I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

These are words that i had been feeling on and off but thank god that i am stronger than before and that This is the way that we love like its forever then live the rest of our life, but not together

at times, it just becomes a habit to think of you and then things will then fall into places and all. even if there's no happy ending with you but i am sure i will find my happy ending. and that things can only get better! oh yeah! cos i am jessie chee and i will put up a strong front even if i am super duper fearful inside.hahahahaha. i am so lovable with many hot friends love- be jealous about it(:

2007-11-20T06:18:00.000-08:00

i am just so happy that i have hot friends. hahahhaa. and one of my hot friend wants to be a hot mama. hahahaa.

to the others:
honey, quit being my fake friend!

i still wonder why i am still worry about you when i heard you were going out late and all. FUCK IT MAN! i dont wan to give a fuck about you "love"

so afterall, i am not much a partie girl you think i am "love"

oh wella. enough said.

and i am so going to be a sinner to bags and maybe shoes. but i am such a sinner for bags. and my aim to get THE BAG for every season. hahhahhaha. and before i get that aim come true i am going to earn all the money for it! hahahahaa.

and i am going to be a cool mama love.

2007-11-18T00:47:00.000-08:00

have i mention before that i secretly wish that we are friends again and be able to hang out as casual as before minus those awkwardness we are having now.

there are a lot of people who i used to be close friends with have naturally now become just friends and it just pisses me off seeing them changing from good to bad, from bad to worst and yet there's nothing much i can do about cos afterall i am not someone who has great influence in their life.

oh well,
then again i secretly wish things did not turn out lidat and that we are still close friends. but for N O W... i just thank god that i have the rest. plus the others
girls and boys you knw who u all are(:

2007-11-17T08:56:00.000-08:00

HELLO ALL!

what if one day i just decided to cut my $265 hair off?
hahahahhaha
i wan to cut it short. have been thinking and thinking for months. its boring having this hair. it has been in this lenght for god knows how many years. and its high time i get it change. perming is a BIG NONO. keeping it long? omg i dont have patience for it. (thou i secretly wants joyce's and twinny's hair lenght) but its like impossible. hahahaha. but i dont wan to look like a hamster. oh god help me please. short=hamster. argh!!!

hahahhaa

i am a stalker but who really cares? cos u dont know i am stalking you love- hahahahaha

anw, today was rather eventful. hahahha. the limelight was on my bimbo-ness. hahaha. i once tot that i when i go to Paris i will bring out all my branded stuffs and just wear it over there. but after tonight i will never do that. i wont want to get rob just because i am a marc jacobs bag. ha ha ha. i was so dumb la. hahaha. maybe in milan someday if i ever set foot there. hahahaha. there was another thing that i was rather dumb but i cant really rmb what it was. haahaha. so i was rather a big time bimbo today. hahahaha.

there's also first time today too! Joyce Gen and i were down at Cine to support Gen's cousin at some Nokia promotion. He was locked up in a seperated transparent container with 3 other people to win some nokia prizes. hahahha. so when we there we needed to show our support by msg DPZ 3 to 9371000 yeah. and another thing was to actually put our hands on the glass panel for 3mins. hahahaha. it was like the Subaru Challenge. hahaha. he dint win for that game but got second. hahahhaha. but but but YOU STILL CAN VOTE it ends tmr afternoon i think. hahahaha. yeah.

One day i am so going to win the Subaru Challenge. and i will have make up on! hahahaha. so at least when i am on camera i still look decent. hahahaha. this is so damn bimbo. hahahha. it will be worst if i am high. hahaha. i will just keep on laughing non-stop. hahahaha. but just wait and see one day u will see JESSIE CHEE winning the Subaru Challenge. hahahaha. Gen will join this with me. Joyce said she cant hold it for long. hahahha. so yeah it Gen and i! its girl's power! hahahahaha.

I MISS THE REST!!! CAN YOU ALL SEE THIS??? I MISS YOU ALL LOVE

this is a damn long post. hahahhaa. with a 1+ gb ram everything works fast and its making me a happie girl! hahahaa

i cant wait to get all busy again. i am in an extremely happy mood today. nothing big happened just the small liitle things that makes me a happie good girl(: and people loves a happy girl and not a grumpy one. hahahaha. oh yes miss little sunshine(:

make me fall in love with you

i dont down grade, just up grade love

2007-10-26T08:37:00.000-07:00

i am so pissed off with myself! Lost in my world and i am trying to find a way out of it. i do see that light out but its not shinning bright enough. i wan to throw that weight away but your constant present plus my on off thoughts are killing me. they are eating away my heart. and it is hurting badly. like really bad. so bad that i really wan to release those emotions. i wan to show it out lord and tell you all to just get out of my life. FUCKEW all! gosh i still dont feel better. for the last time i just wan to get out of the past. i hate the two of you all. so please get out. i wan to get out of your life. i dont wan to get involve in it anymore. please let me died off in your lives plus u all get out of mine too! i just dont dare to be harsh to you all so forgive my behaviour here cos i cannot find other ways to release these energy towards you all.

2007-10-24T07:23:00.000-07:00

and so today was my FIRST DAY in school after two months.

the only thing i love is the company i have and the occasional question like "jessie are you alright? you seem disturb." cos it just shows how much they love me. and i clearly know who are my friends that are aware that i am bothered by some issues. well, its was clearly that i am rather quiet and i seem to be forcing myself to be happier by being hyper and all. but the true is i just wan to be alone and re-read the whole of ps, i love you book. (someone get that book for me)i wan my guy to do that to me when he is away (not dead) and teach me to live and look forward to his coming back. in my heart mind and soul i am just so torn apart. its empty.

"I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven."

JESSIE! WHAT'S YOUR FREAKING PROBLEM? you are freaking killing yourself!

I am out of my mind. but who am i to be blame but myself?

i am way over that period and i know i have josie to hear me out! cos she's the best! i love you josie!

on a happier note - joyce have kinda help me to decide on what to wear tmr. cos this morning i was late as......i couldn't decide on what to wear. hey guys. i am really sorry. cos i made like 10 ppl late for lec. but i wasnt the only one. hahaha.

THE REST - I LOVE YOU ALL! you all make my days a happier day!

cant wait for tmr MJ session plus BBQ! i am going be a pig!
will up load photos asap.

and FENDI won! (time to get a FENDI SPY bag) hahaha i voted for him!

SWEET DREAMS JESSIE-

2007-08-11T11:27:00.000-07:00

this morning, i dint want to wake up to reality
i had the sweetest dream ever, and that dream felt so real, it was like the situation that i wish i am in now, everything in that dream was too real to the extend until i refused to get out of bed. my heart just broke into pieces when i got out of bed. i wanted to dream on that dream. my sweetest dream

these sweet dreams are my sweetest escape of reality, dont bring me back to this reality please.

wake me up only when my dreams turn real, when they are true, A REALITY.

Get me out of this reality-

REGRETS

2007-08-05T08:47:00.000-07:00

i was never good in coping with regrets. basically, i suck totally at it. and the worst part is that i take hell long to get over regrets and its killing me. i just have this sense of loss, disappointment, dissatisfaction. its like what the hell! and like i always say when i am super duper sad "memories are just a sucide". and its true. it cant be anymore clearer. its idiot proof! and the word regret is like the word "IF" if only... if only i know what to do then...if only i said yes... as u can see IF is like regret full of disappointments!

dear god, once again please help me. amen

BAKING TIME!

2007-08-05T02:12:00.000-07:00

I have a craving to bake now! like this very moment!!! maybe i will call joyceyyyyyyy over to bake. or maybe i can go over to her place to bake! i wan to bake cupcakes!!! plus brownies and many other things!!! oh my god!! i miss baking! i still remember the first time i bake and it was a birthday cake! hahahha. i can bake but not that good! hahaha. bestie joyceyyyyyyy can bake way better than i do. hahaha! JOYCE!!! LET'S BAKE AGAIN!

anw, i saw these cupcakes on TWINNY'S blog and its so prettie! and i wan to bake those beautiful cupcakes! and i shall open an online bakery stall soon! hahahha.

aint all the cupcakes beautifully made? hahahaa. i wan to bake now! and next time i will have a baking day with my kids!!! oh my god! so in love with baking now! the whole process is so exciting! hahahaha. i never tot i wld fall in love with baking. i used to bake for u and thou there are times i failed u still ate it and when u left, i dint bake already cos there were noone to bake for. hahaha. but who said there was nobody? i had my friends there! and we had our extremely fun baking sessions! and that's better than anything! best friend baking sessions! its a love i share with them! BESTIE! LET'S BAKE AGAIN!!!

GLOBALIZATION!

2007-08-04T11:11:00.001-07:00

I am invloved in this year's poly forum. and my topic is GLOBALIZATION! and i happened to got this (below) from an extremely special friend's(Hui Ling - miss you so damn much!!!)

What is the truest definition of Globalization?
Answer: Princess Diana's death.

How come?
Answer: An English princess with an Egyptian boyfriend crashes in a French tunnel,
driving a German car with a Dutch engine,
driven by a Belgianwho was drunk on Scottish whisky,
(check the bottle before you change the spelling),
followed closely by Italian Paparazzi,
on Japanese motorcycles;
treated by an American doctor,
using Brazilian medicines.

This is sent to you by a Chinese,
using Bill Gates's technology,
and you're probably reading this on your computer,
that uses Taiwanese chips,
and a Korean monitor,
assembled by Indian workers in a Singapore plant,
transported by Pakistani lorry-drivers,
hijacked by Indonesians,
unloaded by Sicilian longshoremen,
and trucked to you by Mexican illegals.....

That, my friends, is Globalization!

hahaha. if i ever present this in my presentation i'll be dead. hahaha. but this is just for fun joy and laughter. hahahha.

LOVELOVELOVE-

2007-08-03T06:31:00.000-07:00

i am HAPPIE GIRL today! thou i am damn super tired. hahhaa

i was the HEAD WAITER of the ToP table. and it was hell lot of FUN! and i was being observed. hahhaha. i wasnt supposed to be head waiter but just a normal waiter HOWEVER, my Head and Asst. waiter were ABSENT and when asked, i volunteered to be head and Cheryl was my Asst.

oh my god! She was a blessing! hahaha and she's going to be a SUPERSTAR! she was on teevee 4 times yesterday and was just eating rojak! It was my idea to eat that stall rojak. hahaha. then today some channel U ppl came to film the xiao hua xiao cao thingie and came to top table and i am sure Cheryl is in the camera TOO. hahaha.

Some random thoughts, my goal one day is to have a different style of dressing. maybe like the way rui en is in channel 8, 9 o'clock show. hahhaa. those cool boyish dressing. hahaha. one day i will try it and will laugh it off man. hahahaa

2007-08-02T09:21:00.000-07:00

it would be different now if you had taken the path i always wanted you to take. well, if you do plan to make a U turn then i think its getting late already. By then i would have left that waiting place already.

call me the love of your life if you want to

BIEBIElove-

2007-08-01T08:54:00.000-07:00

today i saw this lovely girl

BIEBIElove-
I MISS HER! (and its our clean little secret, extremely clean one)

its been ages since i last saw her. and guess where did i met her. one of the mountain in America call SugarLoaf and then is Temasek Poly Biz School Lab. OMG!!! i miss her-

2007-07-31T15:15:00.000-07:00

hey beautiful,

things are getting better as the days passes by.
one day you will get there.

love you lovely.

2007-07-31T07:43:00.000-07:00

you be my sweetest escapee and i will yours.
with that i will give you a whole new smile

It will only take me one second to notice you, and only a day to know you and also fall in love with you,
but boy, you know smth
it will take me a life time to actually forget about you. maybe it takes forever, we never know.

i wonder who will that person be? maybe he has already appeared and moved on with another person or maybe he haven even appeared and is with someone else now and later moved on with me. hahaha. oh wella, singlehood gets boring after awhile. it becames a routine. and its almost a year now and counting. hahaha.

oh wella, take me to a place where we will find paradise together.

on a more exciting note - i am going to take my first driving practical lesson this thursday! omg this is damn exciting. i am damn happie with it. hahahha. oh wella! gimme all your lucks for FTT next tuesday. its going to be damn exciting! cool shit!

2007-07-29T05:30:00.000-07:00

"Look for a rainbow in every storm
Find out for certain love's gonna be there for you
You'll always be someone's baby"

This was how they were like 10 years ago.

and this is what they have became 10 years later.

yesterday i was at girlfiend's house! audrey darling we were at my place first to pick up some stuffs then my sister was showing the latest Spicegirls photo. both of us were awe by them. and we even went to watch their last record "GOODBYE" and i was at the verge of tears and later girlfriend was telling that she wants to cry too. hahahhaa.

anyway, girlfriend and i decided to play dress up over at her place and i needed to bring my clothings over to have much more to dress up in. and i brought my traveling luggage over. it was hilarious. hahahhaa. shall up load the pic soon.

oh girlfriend, i love you!

2007-07-27T08:45:00.000-07:00

i will not emo so much already.

i WILL enjoy singlehood cos i may be married for 50 years or if i'm lucky 100years! woohoo...
no point crying over people who dont appreciate me! hahahaa

oh wella! on a happier note

SSM was alright today however it dint start with seeing Mr. Goh so i was kinda sad. I kept asking Gen where's her dad. cos both of them GOH. hahaha. Mr. Goh was in TAS in the morning. operation was alright. had the a very brief post-debrief(not done by Mr. Goh, was by Ms Mak) i still feel better with Mr. Goh around (at least it keeps us on our toes). I really like Mr. Goh becos he is like one of the only person who truly appreciate the hardwork we put in thou sometimes we suck at it and he screams and all. BUT at the end of the day, you know he truly cares.

After that had BESE test which i think is a failure FULLSTOP

Then went the library to meet Twinny, Joyce, Jun Gang and Wan Ru for dinner. Dinner was very filling, i ate one and half plate of rice (which is super a lot cos i dont usually finish one plate.) hahhaa then we went to some HK place to have dessert.

Some PHOTOS it was last week with the saints!

Being RETARDED infront of the cam-

This is what we will do in a almost empty and spacious toilet. love these girls!

A sum up of that night! Fish Place Man. was great!

GOODBYE EMO-DAYS

2007-07-26T10:25:00.000-07:00

"take me to your heart, take me to your soul, let me hold your hands before i'm old......they say nothing last forever, love is now or never..."

these lyrics totally brought back memories. memories when i was in BKK and also other memories i sometime wished i will never remembered. emoshit

oh wella...i have got some packing to do and i have been thinking about how to clear them cos the longer they stay the more i feel attach to it. however, i was also thinking...what if i throw them away or give them away ...
will it help?
maybe its better off left untouch.
i'll that be a good choice?
or maybe one day he will come by to collect it.

hahhaaha. how funnnie. who am i trying to bluff.

let me whine like a kid again please. whine like i have never whine before please. or let me cry like i have never cry before

i was never fine nor okay
maybe we will be better off this way
it will be a GREAT if i am able to break it off!

oh my gawk! this post is fullofemoshitemofied

memories are just a sucide

2007-07-25T06:18:00.000-07:00

Hello people!

i think i will blog more often becos nowadays i have more time! and there's a new channel eight drama! its a MUST WATCH 9 o'clock show! there are macho guys, good looking and young ones plus the charming kind and also gay ones la. hahhaa

anw, i wan to talk about my trip to TERMINAL THREE!
i shall allow the photos do the talking!

This is my TWINNY!

i love this picture! i have always want to take such picture. so JUMPIE! (i'm the last one.)

These girls are my SSM classmates!

This too..some are classmates and SSM one too!

These are the things i did in T3. i was a passenger! coolshitman!

Ending off with the people i love! and i cant wait for BKK, CRUISE and maybe LA!

2007-07-24T05:16:00.000-07:00

cool shit!

i managed to put up my blog again after years of "cant be bothered to blog thinking" and i am amazed by how i actually managed to keep it looking good and running!

oh please love me more. hahahhaa

2007-07-24T04:53:00.000-07:00

"ok, i just told jessie i love her.
and im supposed to put it on my blog.
I LOVE JESSIE :D
although i look like i discriminate you some times.
but i still love you!!
haha."

and so this was what wanru said in her blog!

oh wella!

anw, i came across this phrase and i just feel like blogging it out.

An hour of noticing you, a day to know and fall in love with you
BUT
a life time to get over you.

hello

2007-07-23T08:41:00.000-07:00

i am feeling kinda emo-mo now. honestly i dont know why am i blogging just feel like it. those friends that are reading. my advice is "dont visit so often, i will take a million years to blog"

i gave wan ru abt this blog url today but i dont think she will come and read cos this blog is crap. haven got time to do up the blog.

one thing is for sure. i am NOT lily BUT JESSIE!

oh wella. been emo for the last few days and i think i will continue to do so until i get over some stuffs which is taking forever. at least i have a friend who hears me out thou she dont really understand why i am holding on or clinging on some tots BUT she still hears me out! thank u so much! one day our kids will get marry that's for sure!

on a happy note. i have found my long lost twin! love you TWINNY!
i have made some very good new friends, who loves me too thou i am insane crazy
credits to wanru and jungang sometime gerri too!

love all of you all!

BKK soon!

I'M FREAKING SAD! kill me sliently

2007-06-20T07:42:00.001-07:00

OMG!
i cant believe i'm re-opening this blog with such a post.
kill me sliently please.

just the other girl

2006-01-07T06:49:00.000-08:00

life have been pretty much down for me. sian. i have yet to get a job. hopefully the one i go tmr will actually hire me and give me a good pay. haha. i'm pretty much bored. but at least i know that all my saturdays morning are busy. hahaha. i'm giving tuition for this center. i'm giving two kids tuition for free. hahaha. i signed myself up for volunteering work. its near my place and i will love the job cos afterall i love kids. yup!!!!

Chinese New Year is coming and that means big family gathering. well i guess this year my house gathering wont be as big as before as abt three familes wont be joining us this year. gosh!!! it will be quiet cos there's lesser children ard to make the whole occasion a happier one. sian. but well i'll still receive my ang bao. hahaha. cool!!!

CNY also means that my birthday is ard the corner. hahaha. yup!!! its coming!!! and there wld be a small gathering. yup. i'm at a age that i can do almost everything except maybe voting. hahaha. yup!!!! cool age but sound old. hahaha

my results are coming out like in abt 6 weeks time. its fast and i'm not prepare cos i dont know where to go but i really want to go back to school to study. feeling kinda bored. everyday sleep until 12noon then wake up. aiyo and i cant even sleep early at night. sigh. that's what happened this morning.was supposed to wake up early. i screwed up the morning. hahaha. it was bad. real bad. sigh. hahahaa.

anw, that's the end of the entry. have a good day!!! tata

cleo-li-fied

2005-12-20T19:24:00.000-08:00

i have been in malaysia for a month.and guess how i past my time here.the days are long and boring.i wake up just in time for lunch.then head for the sofa to watch tons of dramas.one disc after another.till three.cos my aunt wants to watch her tv drama.then i head to the room to sleep(my daily afternoon nap).i'll then wake up before 6.to catch the last bits of double happiness(ring a bell.its the happy fish show.the show ivy lee act in.they are showing the first part) and guess what they have on cable? the first part of tong xin yuan(the fish ball show)haha.one day in malaysia you will be catch up to three singapore drama shows.boring!!!! at least at six i get to watch this hong kong drama. that's why i wake up before 6.haha

i lead such a boring life in malaysia.cant wait to get my ass back to singapore.hahaha.miss that place.cant wait to do things my way there.

ever wonder why i named this entry cleo-li-fied?its becos i have been reading cleo.i have three copies in my hand.two singapore version and one is malaysia version.the m'sia cleo is so much more thicker.there are a bit more things to read.but there's one or two articles that are repeated from some other issues from s'pore cleo.hahaha.

oh! i have yet to mention that mrs lee gave birth to a baby girl on dec 20 at abt 5.22. she is named Faith Lee.haha.i'm so happy!!!! florina and i have agreed to visit them when i get back to s'pore.hahaha.i wonder what will i tell her.hahaha.

gosh there are so many things i want to do.cant wait to catch up with my friends. and DARLING!!!!! I MISS YOU LOADS!!!!

till we meet again.
ciao

en di fied

2005-11-19T01:23:00.000-08:00

i was supposed to catch emily rose yesterday but the show was very late.and i will be giving it a miss.maybe i will be watching dragon squat(sp?).oh okay i watch just like heaven.and i cried while watching.and darling was great when we were watching the movie.shall minus the details.haha.so yup! just like heaven was so sweet. there was this part where they are going to cut the life support.and i was crying partly becos i was reminded of mrs lee.and recently perfect 10 have been playing you raise me up by westlife.oh god.i'm reminded of her again.i promise she will always be in my living memory.

yesterday i went with darling to this interview at singapore shopping center.to my horror. its "i models international" !!! that cheater!!! they go streets to get models and then tell them to pay like 500 for make up. so unreasonable. and no i wasnt there to be a model or what. was there to be telemarketer.and yes they cheater my feelings. they wanted me to go to the streets to do survey. this is so unreasonable. kick ass la. cheaters shld go to hell and that woman who interview me look so ass-ti-fied!!!!! she has her ass on her face.you can ask her to go and suck shit!!!

oh wella!!enough of angry stuffs. i shall go and get prepare for monday and tuesday papers.i'm finishing on tuesday.and yes i'm happy!!!! and the post o levels examination will be great!!! will be having one gathering after another.and i will definitely be shopping like mad.hahahas.oh well!!! just keep hanging on till the end k.

la tra lala

2005-11-12T03:42:00.000-08:00

have i ever mentioned that so far my papers have been not too bad
well. it does sounds bad if you think that the other people are also going to think its easy. well i guess having god's faith with me i'm not going to worry so much.
i just pray that my other paper will be alright too.yup!

i have been trying to finish up my art prep.hopefuly i can finiah it by tmr.

i think my crazy for edison is back again.erm...i guess it have always been there.but when he isnt in news i'm okay.but when i see him anywhere i will go gugu-gaga over him.hahaha.recently i was pleasently surpraised to find his interview in cleo dec issue.yup.he is so real.very open abt his life and truthful to the media.he dont try to hide anything.he is who you see.the only not edison chen you see is when he is in a role.other then that he is who he is.that's what i like/admire abt him.my sister just got back from hongkong with a number of presents.i have a new bag.new cds.new pencil.and some mag.yup.she went to HMV and got for me edison's limited edition albums.and i totaly thank her for spending a bomb on it.hahahas.

westlife(my all-time favourite band) is out with a new pop ablum after they became four.and i'm going to hit the stalls to get it.its westlife.ever since i heard their "if i let you go" i fall in love with them.that was like 6 years ago. i started liking westlike and edison ever since they step into the limelight.yup.i think its year 1999.the time when i got to know all these stars and going crazy over them.

oh wella.i wanna go and watch movie.maybe emily rose.yup.it sounds thrilling and its a true stroy.so yup.it going to be cool.yup.

i'm so happy that o levels is here.i always wanted o level to come faster.its better to get over and done with it.then to drag it.hahahas.i guess what ever the results is.at least i can make it to where i want to.i will be happy.yup.

cant wait for the last day and another gathering.yup.

thur si fied

2005-11-10T02:30:00.000-08:00

so today is thursday.tmr is friday.my emaths paper two.after that i can say bye bye to trigo,circles and all other not life related topics.haha.i still have abt 7 more papers to take.there's bio,poa,hist,sci mcq and emaths paper two.

today i did some drawings in the morning.then went to slepp for abt 2 hrs.and i did maths all the way till for abt 2 hours.yup.and now i'm blogging reading other people's blog.and later i will be off to do maths again.and at night at abt 11. i am going to changi airport to study till dawn then go to school.hahaha.joking.i'm not that siao to study till dawn.but i'm going to airport to fetch my sister from airport.she's coming back tonight.what an unearthly hour.why school must book such a late flight.there's so many other flights that's so much earlier.i mean you can take a slightly earlier flight.like reaching sigapore at 10 and not 11.30.gosh.its super late.but i still have to go and get her from the sirport.and stay up late and see what goodies did she get for me.hahahas.

there's nothing much to blog abt.going off now. that's it for now.
tata.

sweet sour november

2005-11-09T06:39:00.000-08:00

its your BIRTHDAY today!!!!

i spend the whole day with you. thank you for the day. meeting lao shi was definitely nice.

i went out with darling today. its his birthday. i happy for him. he have been a really nice guy. especially when it comes to me. he is the best thing that can ever happen to me. yup!! anw, we visited our tuition teacher today. she said " i feel happy for you two. and i can feel that both of you still have the bond towards each other. the feelings i feel towards both of you have not change." its great hearing this from an adult, our teacher. she's a very nice woman. full of knowledge. yup.

i guess that's all for today.i'm tired. shall turn in soon. yup. lucks for exams. continue to hold on and keep your candle lighted till the end k.dont give up!!!! if you feel stress just smile.and things will be better(:

2005-11-01T17:04:00.000-08:00

i'm going to miss my sister.i know i will.but this sounds weird.hahahaha.she's in hongkong for 8 days.sounds cool.of cos it does.that's my all time favourite country.i'm always feeling sad whenever i hear ppl going hongkong.and they can only console me by getting stuffs for me.hahahaha.my sister will be going to take photo of edison chen's shop.cool right!!!hahahaha.and in dec aloy is going hongkong.hahahahaha.yeah.i guess hongkong is the hottest holiday spot.all the shopping,food and theme parks.its awesome.hahahahha.

i wish you will smile.

ARGH!!!!!

2005-10-30T02:11:00.000-08:00

OH GOD!!!!

I'M SHOUTING OUT TO YOU

CAN YOU HEAR ME???

I NEED YOUR HELP!!!

PLEASE GIVE ME THE DISCIPLINE TO STUDY.

PLEASE.

I REALLY NEED IT.

PLEASE.

THANK YOU(:

lord i really do pray that i will be able to sit down quietly and study. i also pray that i will not get distracted.please lord.

i just wish i'm able to go thru this one month smoothly.but i guess....i won't.i'm not prepare for the big o levels. i will just try my very best to study all the way.time is limited.

GOD I NEED YOUR HELP.

not a very colourful day

2005-10-25T21:46:00.000-07:00

the other day i was thinking of what am i going to work as during my 3months holiday. i asked my tuition teacher where to get jobs.she said go to some job hunt company or go look into the newspaper.and she continue saying if i go thru the newspaper must be careful cos there are a lot of cheats ard.i was like true.
i told her i want to work in bank and don't want to do commission based jobs.cos i think the pay is so unpredictable.and i decided to give jobs that gotta do with services a missed.cos i think i suck in it.so frontline job is off.so i decided to work in banks.cos it sounds cool and best of all the pay is good.haha.at least i can get quite a reasonable amt after cutting CPF.another place that i dont mind to work in is some fashion designing company.hahaha.after all for those who knows i wish to be a fashion designer.some day.hahaha.
i need to call audrey to get the number to call for jobs.i'm praying hard that i can work in citibank.hahaha.weiying works in HSBC.that sounds cool.and the last time i heard wenjie saying he was working in maybank.i tot that was coool too.hahaha.
this year,for christmas, i'm getting my i pod nano.

kick ass day!!!

2005-10-21T21:07:00.000-07:00

oh well for those who are taking o levels. GOOD LUCK!!!
for those who have just received your promos results.GOOD LUCK to you too.haha
those that don't need to worry abt getting a promotion. good for you.
but for those that have to worry.believe in yourself.follow what your heart says.if u think you are not up for JC you can always change to poly or private schools.there is surely something you will do well in. don't give up.just continue to believe in yourself and god! yup!

i'm going to be busy.haha.will be going all out for o levels.i'm now having my study leave.its great knowing that i'm going to take the o levels but a pity that i'm leaving saint margarets' girls school.after abt 10-11 years of poka dots.haha.i'm finally leaving.good luck to all that have left or leaving or waiting to leave. i believe god has a plan for all of you all.have fun in your next stage of life.it would be better if you face it with a smile(:

what a doleful girl

2005-10-16T04:31:00.000-07:00

when i look into the mirror i see a girl's heart breaking into pieces.she don't see the sun rising.she sees the sun setting.she believes that everything has a starting,middle and an ending. the ending is up to one to create.all good things ends really very fast.and that's sad.this girl always sees the cup is half empty.sigh.i wish this girl isn't me but the sad new is...she is me.

okay.anw, i went to watch peter pan last night.the boys there are cute.haha.mixed blood.tonight is their last show.and that's sad.i seat on the first row.its too front.haha.i hate it when my sister PMS.cos it sucks.yesterday she PMS throughout the whole evening till night.and it suck totally.that was saturday night.

firday night was awesome.i had a gathering.weiying claims it was not successful but zhen and i said it was still a success.haha.yup.we went out to genki sushi to eat.at forum.then headed to town to play till 11.30.which was very fun.took neoprint twice.one unsuccessful.one was great.yup.we did a lot of catching up.if we have no boundaries.we wld talk till dawn.haha.girls!!!i miss all of you all.really do.we must have all these little gathering till old k.winnie and florina.you all must come for our next gathering k.yup

anw, i'm now going back to do prep.tmr i need to hand up my art course work.yeah its finally coming to an end.i can get started will my revisions.yeah.

the place aint perfect

2005-10-07T07:04:00.000-07:00

what is perfect?
ans: nobody/nothing is perfect. only god is.

anw, i don't really like my blog layout.well i'm not that impress by the layout(not that i can do one).i chose it cos i cldn't find a nicer one.even if i found one some stuffs will just screw things up.oh wella.

today haven been easy going. it was rather screwed up by my attitude. today was rather tiring and saddening. i wanted to meet up with florina but canceled it cos i tot i was going to accompany aloy to get his stuufs.but in the end a friend of his tag along.seriosly if i knew his friend was going with him i won't be thinking of going with him. i wld choose to go out with florina. is not like as if i'm choosing friends over boyfriend. but at certain time friends shld be more impt than boyfriends.(like today).i'm always the one canceling my outing with florina. and the reasons are usually the same one. i guess she won't have high hopes when i plan an outing.sigh.but i knw florina will definitely understand.

i guess i was kinda thrash today. its just not so my day. was supposed to be at aloy's place but he has some gathering. and so today i dint go to his place. came home by myself. and i was super hunger then. aloy and i were supposed to eat but because i was overwhelmed with anger i canceled it and said i want to go home. who is to be blame for my hunger?(ans: only me, myself and i) yup. oh wella. sometimes things will just not go your way.

recently i had been such a control freak. i keep asking dear a lot of questions and sometimes it will just pissed him of. oh wella. its just that insecure feelings that every girl has. which girl won't want their boyfriend to tell them everything with and hintings. sometimes i just wish you tell me more things. at least let me feel in it even if i'm not.

sometimes i dont even understand what on earth am i talking abt. i dont even understand my feelings. sometimes my feelings clt me.which is wrong.

i guess the all these disagreements with aloy. all comes down to communication break down.its not like as if we dont talk but we are not talking abt the right thing. the contrary is that we can live thru being together for 1yr 4 mths. and these problems have yet been solved. its been always there and i have yet to find the solution.

on a lighter note. i think mrs tan(my principal) is rather sweet.she gave the 4Express girls two pens which meant hardwork and a book mark which has inspiring message. i chose a never to give up bookmark.its black and one. she's really sweet.i rmb before my PSLE my then pricipal came the primary six girls a file and a clip.she paste a note on the file.(her maid helped her) that's still really sweet. i guess this is the one good thing that happened to me today(:

so after all these there's still some good.haha.yup.

here i am blogging away...

2005-10-06T06:30:00.000-07:00

my brother is waiting to play his game-mapple story. haha.kids..he is having his PSLE and still wanna play. poor alvin is at home studying. my brother thinks he such a smart ass.who can get thru PSLE with flying colours.haha

anw, i just got back from my darling's house.today town is flooded with cjc ppl and rjc. dear and i were like trying to get away from the crowd.haha.cos after all it isn't nice being spotted by friends andget tease abt it.haha. anw, did i mention that Mr. A did the swetest thing/most romantic thing. actually, to outsiders its not so romantic.but to ME-everything he does is sweet.haha. he slip 50bucks into my purse.haha.cos i had no money to get my adidas watch.he got one for me.haha.i was shocked when i saw the money.haha. and he paste a postit on the note and it says

"$50 for the watch, happy 1 year 4 months"

Gosh!!!we have been together for a long time. and counting. i'm blissfully happy.yup. love you darling!!!

anw, for now, tata.

a BRAND new place

2005-10-05T06:22:00.000-07:00

oh well!! as the tittle explains. THIS is a whole new place for me. haha. I feel so weird blogging. its been ages ever since i last blog. haha. I don't even knw why am i blogging.(i don't even rmb my own blog address). i guess the only reason why i'm doing so is becos to catch up with friends. its been ages even since i talk to good friends. raging frm A-Z. haha.

anw, i guess this is also a place where i can whine for all i care. i'm such a whiny person. which makes me wonder how Mr. A can stand me. haha. but when he isn't in a good mood...he will flare up and its not nice. girls have to understand that guys are like mount vesuvius on the verge of eruption. they can be nice to you when they are calm, will continue to hold on but when ppl gets up to their nerves they will explode. BOMB!!!

haha. well i guess most guys are like that...cos my dad, brother and boyfriend are all like this.

my tag-board is the old one. couldn't delete the old msg.so i just left it there.haha.

a quick up date abt me.
-i did badly for prelims.(i passed 5 out of 7, without moderations)
-because i did badly so i'm not going anywhere for first three months.
(will be getting a job, if not lazy ard)
-now i'm really busy with my art course work.(praying hard that i can finish asap)
-i'm finding time to catch up with my work.(art takes up lots of my time)
-i'll be on study leave, starting next friday.

i guess that's abt it.
i will be super busy frm now till nov23.